10 lbs of crap, 5 lb bag...

Ok, just for updates, I got shrinked.  He immediately changed my meds saying that the other Dr didn't do anything wrong, but what I was on was definitely not what he would have started me on.  So now I'm titrating up on the new stuff and titrating down on the old stuff.  Let me explain why this is so weird.  I was only on 5mgs of the old stuff...  That's half of the smallest pill they make.  And he had me cut down to a quarter of a pill, of the smallest pill they make.  Okey-dokey.  I was soooo thrilled to hear that coming down off the old stuff could be sooo icky that I need to do it that slowly.  -.-  Yet another win for the theory of general practitioners.  He also prescribed a sleeping pill instead of the valium that my good old GP put me on.  Turns out one of the side effects of the old stuff was not sleeping.  Why did I go to the Dr in the first place?  I WASN'T SLEEPING.

Really glad I got shrinked, because I do feel better on the new meds, and unlike my GP, I feel perfectly comfortable calling this Dr and telling him that I'm still waking up through the sleeping pill.  Which I am.  Gotta love the medication merry-go-round.

OH btw, the new stuff?  Yeah..  It's sort of removed what little brain-to-mouth filter I had.  Fair warning people...

Oh happy day...

Today is gonna suck... huge.  Working in an area that has 5 acre yards, and is back yard aerial which means I will be throwing my ladder at each and every pole after hauling the thing across a 5 acre yard to do so.  I'm going to get shrinked tomorrow so that just adds to the anticipation factor, not.  I slept for crap, again.  It's raining and looks like it will be all day.  Ever handle a 75lb ladder?  Now try it with wet leather gloves.  Oh happy day...

*POUTING*

M's boss in an asshole that scheduled him on his regularly scheduled weekend off so now I can't go camping on that weekend....  I haz a sad...

It's all Kaya's fault

Again...
I hate/love when that friggen woman picks my brain. M and I had an opportunity to play and we didn't. Cause I was tired. Cause I'm never tired -insert eyeroll here- And he let me. Maybe I just wanted to be 'encouraged'. Maybe I just wanted M to make me. Maybe I just need to get over myself and play already. I'm almost scared to let him do tttwd again, and I don't know why? Whenever I want it I get it so its not like he denies me when we have the opportunity. But its been soooo long. I haz a skeered.